Getting Busy

So I know it’s been a little while since I’ve posted anything, so here’s a little update on everything that’s been going on:

Last Friday we went to the NXT show in St. Augustine, then Saturday night we went to the USWA show here in Jacksonville, and on Sunday we went to Disney on Ice.

Monday we spent the day with my sister at the beach since she’s about to leave to go teach in Guatemala for six months. Then Tuesday and Wednesday I was down in Winter Park for the NXT taping. I was a production assistant on it.

I got back yesterday and picked Ella up, and we had lunch with the guy I’ve been crushing on, which led to spending two hours at the park, followed by getting smoothies before he brought us home.

All of this being said, our schoolwork has been a bit lacking this week (mostly because I forgot to send her to my sister with books while I was gone). Monday is her birthday, so I’ll be nice and make her not get back on track until then.

I have posted tons of pictures from everything to my instagram account (lilarenee91) if anyone is interested in seeing them. Typically I would post pictures here, but there is a lot, and I’m posting this from my computer rather than my phone, so I would have to take the time to download them all first. Frankly, I’m just too tired/lazy to do that right now.


So Much Stuff Coming Up

It’s going to be such a busy month for us.

Friday we’re going to St. Augustine for an NXT show, and then on Saturday we’re going to a USWA show. On Sunday, Ella is going to Disney on Ice. The plan was for my dad to take her, but he’s saying after everything we’re doing Friday and Saturday, he may not feel like it, and then I’ll take her.

Then next week (from the 18th to the 20th), I’ll be in Winter Park to work on the NXT tapings at Full Sail.

The following weekend we’ll be celebrating Ella’s birthday (it’s on the 24th).

Then the weekend after that we’re going back down to Full Sail for the NSCS Full Sail Chapter Induction Ceremony. As a new member, I’m being inducted during it.

Pure Motivation Part 2

Today was fantastic!

I’m not going to lie, I was extremely tired though.

No matter what I did last night, I just couldn’t sleep. I finally crashed at 2 AM, only to wake up at 4 AM, shower, get dressed, and leave at 4:20 AM.

There was only a handful of us on the call sheet, but it was a small event, so a big crew was unnecessary. Since I was shadowing a camera operator, I was mostly learning how the camera works. I also got a little hands-on experience as well, and recorded a little bit myself.

Howie, the producer for today, said that next time, he’s going to make sure I get more camera op time though. Fingers crossed that it means I’ll be filming some promos for the NXT taping I’ll be working on the 19th.

Pure Motivation

I’m sending Ella to my brother’s again tonight.

I have to be down in Winter Park tomorrow. I’m working with my school on a project called Pure Motivation. It’s a regular thing in Orlando that gets people together to help clean up parks as well as other charitable and environmentally friendly activities.

This will be the first time I’ve taken part in one of their events, so I’m super excited about it.  I’m going to be shadowing the camera operator and assisting as a grip.

Easier Going

So, following the war that took place in her home Monday, every day since this week has gone by with much more ease. She’s completed all of the work scheduled for each day with no fights about any of it.

Math used to be one of her favorite subjects, so I’m not sure why she put up such a big fight about doing it.

Is it just a matter of not liking Mondays? That’s what it seems like.

If that is the case, does anyone have any advice for transitioning easily from a weekend of no schoolwork, to having to do work on Monday?

A Developing Pattern

I’m starting to notice that Mondays are always hell. No matter what we’re doing and what programs we’re using when it comes to Ella’s schoolwork, it takes hours and hours to do it, and every second is a fight, and then come Tuesday, we breeze through everything with ease.

Is it Monday blues?

Is it because she just had two days off and now she’s having to do schoolwork again?

I’m certainly not complaining about her behavior today, it was wonderful, but I need to figure out who to make Mondays more like a Tuesday.

It Must be Monday

Here we are, once again, making no progress on Ella’s schoolwork.

It must be Monday.

I’m trying IXL today, and after a strong start, it has fizzled out and it’s taking half an hour just to solve one equation.

I’d like to contribute it to my dad yelling at her (granted, she did yell at him, but he has a habit of overreacting and I absolutely hate being stuck here, but that’s another story.)

Regardless, after he yelled at her, everything went to hell.

She started crying, she wouldn’t even attempt to do her schoolwork. She won’t count on her fingers, she won’t draw pictures, her immediate response to everything is “I don’t know.” (She’s not even trying, her go to is to give up.)

This of course, results in me getting very upset and on the verge of losing my temper (my patience is already bagged up.

I made her get a pencil and some paper to work out the math problems (it’s input/output charts with adding three-digit numbers). She did the first one, successfully after some coaxing, and then decided she didn’t want to use paper, only to fail due to her inability to retain the parts of the sum she’d already figured out. Then angrily said, “Fine!” and picked up her pencil once again.

She’s now sitting a few feet away from me, angrily attempting to solve 179 + 189.

She frequently skips over numbers when she’s counting, and I don’t expect that to be any better since she’s in such a bad mood now.

She’d rather give up than try, and seems to think if she cries enough or says, “I don’t know,” enough that I’ll do it for her, and won’t make her do it.

I know she’s smart enough and capable of figuring it out. I’ve seen her do it before. Somewhere during the day she decides she doesn’t want to do it though, and hell is unleashed.

I’m screaming, she’s crying, and I’m threatening to put her right back in Ms. Hauser’s class (which truthfully, neither of us want.)

She says she likes being homeschooled, so why does she push me to the edge of not wanting to continue this adventure? Why does she push me to wanting to give up?

I can’t even wash the dishes or take the rent check to the office, because in the time that I’m not sitting beside her, ensuring that she gets her stuff done, it won’t be done. What should only take half an hour, turns into two hours. And the moment we have even the slightest bit of progress, she’s asking for a break.

Is it motivation? I know she doesn’t care whether or not it gets done, because I know for a fact she’d be perfectly happy not doing it and constantly begs to be done or to not have to do anymore. No matter what subject, no matter what method or curriculum we’re using. No matter if it’s in books like she requested, or online. She doesn’t want to do it, and even the threat of no video games, no ice cream, no going places or doing things has no effect on her.

She doesn’t care that I’m going to take away her tablet or not let her watch youtube, or if I cancel trips to the zoo or the pirate museum. She gets it in her head that she doesn’t want to do it, so she fights me.

I tell her I’ll take her to her favorite restaurant afterwards, and she still won’t do it.

Neither positive nor negative reinforcement work.

She sits here just staring at the paper/computer, not doing anything. She won’t even ask for help. She waits until I notice she isn’t doing anything and I ask if she needs help. I don’t always notice in a timely manner because I have my own schoolwork and chores that I have to do. Yet it’s apparent she needs to have her hand held and be coddled or else she can’t do it.

Am I being too harsh? She is seven, after all (her birthday is in just a couple of weeks though and she’ll be eight.) I try to reign in my temper and not yell at her, even when she’s pushing all of my buttons and making me want to scream, but I can’t help but wonder.

It was brought up before that perhaps there’s a learning disability there? And maybe that’s the case. Yet when she takes placement tests, she always scores high and usually well above grade level, so I know she’s capable of doing the work if she just wanted to.

Before pulling her out of school to homeschool her, her teacher said during a conference that she just sits there, not doing anything, she won’t ask for help, and I’ve been seeing that for myself the past three months. And the in the ten minutes or so that it’s taken me to compose this blog post, she’s asked, “What were the numbers again?” five times. The numbers being the two numbers that she’s been trying to add together for the last ten minutes.

National Society of Collegiate Scholars

I’m officially a member of the National Society of Collegiate Scholars!!

I’m so happy and excited. I finished filling out my profile information on their website, and was told that I would be receiving an official “diploma” for it in 4-6 weeks.

I’m so excited and thrilled. Everything I’ve wanted, and everything I work so hard for is being recognized, and I legitimately am trying not to cry while I type this.

I’m just so happy that I have to share it in every way possible.

Lessons Learned

As I stated in a previous post, Ella was at my brother’s Tuesday night. I was supposed to go to Orlando yesterday and set up for WWE Axxess, but unfortunate circumstances prevented me from making the trip.

That means, these circumstances have also prevented me from going to pick up Ella. When I sent her with my brother Tuesday night, I only sent her with enough schoolwork (and clothes) to cover her for yesterday, because I believed I would be picking her up last night.

However, my mother won’t be bringing her to me until tomorrow.

This means Ella hasn’t had to do any schoolwork today, and likely won’t do any tomorrow.

Clearly, in the future, I should not only pack her more clothes (just in case), but ensure that my brother (or whoever else has her) is prepared to give her more work than I have planned, on the off-chance that she stays longer.

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